It's rainy here in Music City and as I sit here in this lonely house listening to the quiet tears of a broken-hearted man, his plea breaks our hour-long, reverent silence, "Lauren, pray. Pray so hard." "I will." We all will. For it is prayer that will ultimately sustain us. It is prayer that is our life-line. It is prayer - that conversation we all too often take for granted - that will heal our pain, renew our spirits, and bring calm in the midst of chaos...
Chaos. Now there's a word to ponder... I'm once again reminded that God is not a God of chaos but a God of order. All that has happened in the last week was a part of this heavenly order. What blindsides us on a random Tuesday afternoon comes as no surprise to the Master of the universe. Sure, He has a lot on His plate, but not for one second did He look away as the cancer began to invade her body. Not for one second did He become too preoccupied to make sure her blood counts didn't drop. Not for one second did He run out for a lunch break and come back to find her being pumped full of life-threatening drugs. None of it has caught Him off guard. In fact, all of it has been orchestrated by Him. Since she was a thought in His perfect mind, He has had this planned for her.
But why HER, we may ask, especially in our moments of darkest doubt. That, we may never have an answer for. But the answer to the 'why' in all of this can be simply put- For His glory. And isn't His glory worth it? We serve a mighty and an awesome God. He has promised He will never leave us nor forsake us; He will not give us more than we can handle; though we walk through the fire, we'll not be burned; all things work according to His good purpose for those who love Him....the list of promises goes on and on. But even better than the promises is the Promise-Maker. For, unlike any of us, He keeps His promises- ALL of them. So, Father, give us as many rainy Mondays as You'd like but keep us mindful that You are the God of the rain, You are the God of the tears, the God of the lonely Mondays and the random Tuesdays and help us love You better for it all.
Pray, with thanksgiving, that the echo-cardiogram of her heart has slightly improved and that the white blood cell count is dropping. Pray that her body will continue to be strong and tolerate the extremely aggressive treatment. Pray for Matt's continued positive outlook and that he will continue to make wise decisions for their family. Pray for Mom as she shared last night the excruciating pain of having to watch her daughter endure all that this disease brings with it. Jennifer's jaw is hurting as a side-effect of one of the drugs; please pray that the pain will ease.
The Vandy Verse:
Glory be to him whose power, working in us, can do infinitely more than we can ask or imagine. Glory be to him from generation to generation in the Church and in Christ Jesus forever and ever. Amen. Ephesians 3:20-21
A Little Somethin' for the Samples:
Jenny is loving the cards and care packages! Thank you! If you'd like to send something, it may be helpful to use their home address as the return address to ensure it makes it to her one way or the other. Jen and Matt's home address is-
7400 George Gaines Road
Nashville, TN 37221
Finally, I'd like to leave you with the lyrics of the song from which I borrowed my post title. I found them especially poignant this evening.
Funny, but it seems I always wind up here with YOU
Nice to know Somebody loves me
Funny, but it seems that it's the only thing to do
Run and find the One who loves me....